About five months ago, I tore a ligament in my knee. It was the first game of championships in basketball, and I had had the best season of my life. It was really hard to accept the fact that I was not able to play any of my sports or work out. The first few months were the hardest months of my life. I was two weeks behind in school and I felt as if I was no one. Volleyball and basketball, I felt, were what I was known for. If you ask one of my friends or a person who knew of me who I was, I knew they would say, "Oh, I know of Taylor White! She plays ..." So basically when I tore my ACL, it felt as though everything I was, was stripped away. I was a real mess. I thought that there was nothing left of me. I went to physical therapy twice a week, and even though I love playing and couldn't stand being out, I didn't listen to what the therapists were trying to tell me. I just pretended that noting was wrong, and I didn't care how fast I got back. It was just a rough and rocky road that I thought I couldn't handle. Whenever someone asked how I was doing, I just shrugged, saying...great. It wasn't until a friend texted me that I got out of this sad sleep. If you notice, I did not mention God once in the first half of my story, and that was because he was not in it. I somehow decided that I didn't need him even in the hardest time of my life. That one conversation with my friend really changed my perspective on life in general. After talking about my depressing life, my friend, (no surprise it was Josh), asked me a few questions that no one dared to ask me. To sum it up, he asked me questions like, "why did this happen to you?" and "have you talked to God about why?" Honestly, I had no answer to those questions, but in order to save myself, I just answered what I thought he wanted to hear. But even though I couldn't answer the questions, just thinking about it made me realize what I was missing. The idea that God may have had a reason for letting this happen to me had never ever crossed my mind. I had been trying to get through life all on my own, thinking that no one would ever understand the pain I was going through. (Not even my friends who had gone through surgery like me). It was a difficult path to my realization, and when I finally realized what I was missing, it was quite hard to get back on track. I finally started praying again, and I even started doing devotions every morning. After talking to Josh, my other friend Sydney, and praying, I knew why I was injured. Everything finally fit together perfectly. A week before I tore my ACL, I remember talking to Josh about life. I had told him that life was going way too fast and I was stressing out about how much I needed to get done. I told Josh that I wish there was a pause button on life. After I tore my ACL I didn't have to do work for a little bit, I didn't have any sports, and I could just relax for a bit. Instead of seeing what I could do, the thoughts of what I couldn't do filtered everything I saw in life at that time. By the time I realized that I had so much, and God had truly blessed me, I could already resume things like weightlifting and jogging. I gained back so much motivation that all at once I headed full on back into my life, better than ever: even before I was injured. Now it has been about five months, and I do not and will never regret anything I've gone through. In fact, now that I've been through it, my life is so much stronger than before.
I learned that there I a reason and a time for everything, and even though sometimes I want things to happen at the time, there is a greater plan for me. If something does not work out as expected, there is always a way to turn it into something good. God is always there no matter how badly we treat him, or neglect him, and even if we think there is no answer and no reason, there always is. God sometimes has to send 'wake up calls' to us when we turn our eyes away from him; it just took me this big of an incident to realize who I truly live for.
Ecclesiastes 3:1
There is a time for everything. There is a time for everything that is done on this earth.
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